Lost Lover

A white dove sitting all alone in a tree if you touch the dove’s wings it will feel so soft. That little white dove is sad and crying she has no friend no mate. Then out of no where a big white male dove lands next to her.

My name is Kim I am 15 years old my first boyfriend was my first true love. His name is Caymen he meant the world to me he is 5″6 light brown hair, Carmel skin color with those baby blue eyes. I felt like I was looking into a blue lava lamp. It was Valentine’s Day I didn’t have enough money to buy him something big so I bought him a small tedy bear and some flowers. He says” I love it baby girl. I feel bad I didn’t have enough money to buy you flowers but I did buy you this”. I started to cry he handed me this giant red tedy bear that said” I love you kim”. He gave me a box of chocolate and a hand written poem that said” Baby girl my carmel sweet candy girl. I love you so much your so sweet. I don’t wanna lose you I love you my kim”. I told him I loved him and that he was my very first boyfriend and first true love. He hugged me and kissed me and said” Baby girl you are my first true love”.

Now its Christmas and I know how much he wanted a gutair so I went and bought him a red gutair for 260 dollars and wrapped it in gold. He came over to my house all dressed up looking nice. I told him I have a present for you as I run upstairs and I grab his gift. I tell him to close his eyes and I put the gift in his hands.” open your eyes”  I tell him. He smiles and unwraps his present, his mouth drops open then he plays a wonderful tune. He grabs me and kisses me then he says” go get dressed and put on that pretty baby blue dress. 15 mins later I walk down the stairs in a shiny baby blue dress with matching blue heels. We got in his car and the next thing I know we are at the Elephant Bar. Tears come to my eye every time he does something better than me. What I don’t know is everything is finna go wrong. I thought Caymen wasn’t into the whole  weed thing well I was wrong he has been getting all this money by selling weed. We sat there and ate and the two guys wearing black walked up to Caymen” We need to speak to you”. He looks at me” Don’t worry baby I will be back”.

Its been 20 mins I start to worry I run outside and I see Caymen on the ground. The next thing I know someone grabs me from behind I pass out and when I woke up it wasn’t a good sight. I was stripped naked and tied to a bed then one of the guys that was wearing black walks in. I start crying” please don’t do this”. I get all happy because all of a sudden Caymen bust in the door with blood running down his face. He  run’s toward the black guy and starts  beating him at first I start crying tears of joy then all of a sudden the other black man walks in with a gun in his hand. Now the other guy is bringing in a chair and some rope he makes caymen sit down on the chair and ties his arms. Im crying and the guy is still holding the gun Caymen looks at me” Im sorry baby girl I got you into this mess I should have told you”. I start crying louder and the next thing I know I hear a gun shot I look at Caymen then I start screaming at the top of my lungs he was shot threw the head. I beg them not to hurt me but the next thing I know im passed out. I wake up there is a blunt in my hand and im wearing a red mini skirt with a red see through shirt. I start to cry I try to get up but someone pushes me down “bitch sit your ass down your not going anywhere your my hoe”. I cry and I beg” please I don’t wanna do this” he slaps me and grabs me by my arm and throws me inside the car.

Its been 5 1/2 months now I have been selling my body to the streets And I start to lose all hope. 4  days later a cute lightskinned guy pulls up and I get in his car and he drives away” so what do you want me to do”? I ask him and he says”nothing”. I look at him and he looks at me” What I want you to do is let me help you”. I smile and all I say is ” good luck”. He takes me to his house and lets me inside I sit down. I guess he see’s the marks on my face he gets me some Ice and hands it to me his hands are so soft. He offers me something to eat he can tell I haven’t eatten cause I ate the whole thing super fast. He says”there is plenty of food to eat.

Its been 4 days now and I think I am in love I feel so safe. He lets me sleep in his bed and he holds me nice and tight. He tells me he loves me and he wants to marrie me. I say yes 4 weeks later than we are married. 2 weeks later we had sex I didn’t know I had HIV or Aids until 4 weeks later I got checked. I cried and then I told him. He looked at me and then he kissed me “Baby girl I don’t care but if I die I will die with you”. I cried so much we only had a week to live so we made the best. We went swimming, Out to dinner and to the movies.

Saturday we died in each others arms 3:00 a.m

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