2010 one last remark about Mom she’s never had faith or trust in me she always doubts redirects me when i was little she continuously blamed me accusing me of being sick needing a psychiatrist at age 20 my parents committed me for disciplinary reasons to the Institute of Living a psychiatric hospital in [...] Continue reading → 
if i was a pearl i’d feel itchy scratchy stuck inside an oyster shell if i was a tree i’d be a big fat redwood fantasizing about Julia Butterfly Hill living and peeing around me if i was a dog i’d be a Catahoula hound if i was Italian i’d be Sicilian if i [...] Continue reading → 
in my dreams there always is a woman beside me talking touching flirting with me looking out for me making love with me standing up lying down for me loving playing dancing accompanying me but in real life there is no one i wake from sleep and there is nobody a bed empty of [...] Continue reading → 
if i was a girl i wouldn’t shave i’d be a tomboy ballerina with upper body muscles maybe a jock or surfer girl smell a little subtle i’d be tough learn to take a punch but i’d also be fragile sensitive intelligent i’d dress down like female ducks gray beige brown yet wear thongs [...]Podcast: Play in new window | Download
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I’m sitting at a bus stop watching the cars go by as I wait for the bus. The sound of noisy cars and street ambiance slowly cross-fade to the voices of two people walking towards the small bus shelter. One of them, a woman, sits down right next to me, at which point her conversation with [...] Continue reading → 
I need more paint.
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These four walls are closing in I feel like I have lost a close friend The days are long and the nights are short I do beleive this is my last resort I push at the door it doesn’t budge For the windows I lunge Continue reading → 
37 BITTER, SIMPLE, regretful TRUTHS. Not hearing God’s replies to my prayers. Not believing I could be saved. Thinking that, “I run this!” Believing I could do it all on my own. Believing that all I’ve done was enough. Believing that loyalty still matters. Not realizing that it doesn’t matter. Not seeing it’s time to [...] Continue reading → Life to Me in General is a repetition of itself and nothing absolutely new comes here. Things which have happened before come into play again and again but in different places and time which we are just not aware of. This has led me to believe that there is no such thing as Death. Just [...] Continue reading → she remains a fuzzy memory mystery once a fountain of laughter joy sex intimacy camaraderie now a myth gone for many years old tampon box waiting deep on bathroom shelf unused le creuset pots asleep inside kitchen cabinet in her absence i became her my hair as long as hers what shall we do today [...] Continue reading → sea turtles belly-up in ocean oil rig spewing in gulf what is the goal in afghanistan will someone please explain to me what is the strategy what does the united states realistically hope to achieve? anyone try scoring heroine on the streets lately cheaper cleaner stronger than ever good afghany white traitor in the house [...] Continue reading → the limits of language futility of language languagelessness of language how to speak write express within the confines of language inadequacies of language how to describe thoughts feelings ideas with 26 Continue reading → 
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